How I Juggle Motherhood + Working.

Hello to all the working mama’s! Let’s get into the ups and downs of being a working mama. I’ve always known that I wanted to be a mom, and the plan was to be a stay at home mom. To stay home and raise babies, is an absolute dream of mine. BUT, that is not how the real world works apparently. When I had to go back to work, it broke my heart. I was overwhelmed with so many different emotions, am I letting Sutton down by not being around all the time? Am I going to be able to juggle having a three month old and working? I am pharmacy technician, my job is no walk in the park it’s A LOT! It’s stressful, energy sucking, and depending on the day it can be very mentally draining, and bringing that home to my baby and husband as a new mom made me feel all the sad and unnerving feels. When I left on maternity leave there was a lot of changes happening, so coming back to not knowing what I was walking back into was the hardest thing. New management, new co-workers and old co-workers leaving and no longer being there. The only thing that really got me through, was knowing that my mother-in-law would be the one watching Sutton. As hard as it was to even think about leaving Sutton, I had to realize I wasn’t going to have to leave him at a day care with people I don’t know.

I had to learn how to work with new people, in pharmacy every pharmacist has a specific way they like things done, so having to learn all the new ways of doing things was huge for me. After 5 years of doing things one way it can be tough to try to break those habits. I have had to learn how to leave my home life at the door when I get to work and leave my work life at the door when I get home. I’ve had to learn to let stuff go that would normally upset me. I have had to learn how to prioritize doing things, and the worst of all I have had to learn how to get up when my alarm goes off, I don’t get to hit snooze 10 times before getting up. LOL!!

Mathew and I’s relationship has had to go through some changes as well. Nothing crazy, but having a baby is a lot for a husband and wife to figure out in general then you add going back to work and just having to learn a new way of life, pretty much. I’ve been back at work for almost a year, and things are going okay. I do still plan to be a SAHM eventually, but right now I will enjoy the adult time I get 3-4 times a week. I know there are mama’s out there that love to work and couldn’t wait to get back to work and that is absolutely wonderful, I am just not that mama. I do like to know that I can help contribute a little for my family. But for now I will continue to pray and trust that God will allow me the ability to stay home and raise my baby!

YOU GO THIS MAMA!!!<3

Hugs, Sam!